You gentle lamb. You sweet human. You who does not know how powerful you are. You are awake. Dont go back to sleep. Those around you and those that surround you want you to sleep. As expressed the time before and the time before that in these words i speak and write and try and live.
Its not about me its about you. I see your potential your effervescence your panache -You femininity your womanly zeal or your tataa (your balls) your amazing intelligence. Compliments are not going to help you.
I am so afraid as well. So are you. Hey come and hold me hand, hold on the road is tough and it wil get tougher. The longer you are awake you will be seeing and feeling.
The first and important thing to say and it has been said by me when i say for example -i am “pro black” for example “i am a feminist” for example i am the chap stopping your car from moving because you are destroying the earth i am the you and you are more then me i am R……. i am P………n i am the”sex worker” (the oldest profession so it makes it OK because the men who created that created that the women who support that support that who are oppressed or realist its a simple equation as many violent men/women have told me and looked over and around me and i noticed i was standing alone) i am the lowest caste/the underclass/ i am the fist that’s blocked and kick that’s stopped and i am so afraid and i hear fire and clips being loaded and screaming and cries and those cries follow me throughout me living waking moments. They don’t stop. Some say that a mother always hears or feels the soul of their children depart their mortal coil. what does a father hear or feel?
Another warning as a friend as a soul mate as a kin spirit as someone who loves you more then yourself for those who are awake around you and surrounding you are extremely violent forces and those are men and women who protect what is all around you. They are exceptionally good at violence. They are so good that before the fight starts those well meaning and those that “care” for you will advise YOU to not bother. It ain’t worth it.
History tells you and me that they will stop at nothing to get you to go back to sleep. They will use any means necessary to stop you from speaking. They will also by any means necessary hurt you where it hurts the most. You know where that is. As history tells us those parents who hidd and held and kissed their loved ones goodbye knew what was coming for them.
Those gangsters in guises of leaders those leaders in the guise of feminine gentility sexuality they who protect the ruling elite. They who love those chosen few who rule and they will not stop. Till you are a good robot. Then as almost as if nothing has happened they will follow the next ruler leader the next g.
Throughout me waking hours i have seen “aunties” and “uncles” “brothers and sisters” smashed beaten terrorised by those violent military civilian yobs and brutes. In this history i have seen the worst in me and the best in me. Through you because always remember what hurts me hurts you.
You have not seen the best of me yet. And yes those violent and ruling elite whether in your front room or on the “smart phone” or lying next to you naked in bed they sleep so well. Don’t they? Maybe you will detect a small smile a grin that’s gloating comes about when they know they got you. Is that you or is that me.
A another thing those bullies and governments and gangsters in this world who make those gentle lovely peoples cry and worry and hurt and feel so much anguish and fear and they make them feel they are not worthy to make them feel its good enough lets settle for 5th best 4th best its OK we be all right – NO its not going be all right as those bullies and violent peoples have found out to their costs and their children’s costs sometimes it ain’t that easy and that’s when we have all lost. Or did we win? No it is not about those empty minded words and ideas. Its about you and me sleeping while they are killing raping and taking and we “pretend” we don’t listen. Do you listen? Or are you too busy worrying about your bills and the cars and the next thrill and who you going to check/see/listen to and whether they going to check you and hey you look good….i must say hey you are looking better everyday…
where was I? the distraction the lie the illusion and i almost stopped and ended it just like that. There are many who in this world who do end it just like that. Gone.
Because those loved one and those protectors and that guardianship were not about and those protectors and guardians were too busy trying to earn the bread and the butter and those constant costs and too worried about their hue of skin and their chest size and that ointment that’s going to fix YOU and that Church Mosque Synagogue that social centre that vegan shop that anarchist hang out those wild hills that gypsy lifestyle which is free. So free that they did not listen. They were not about. Or they took that as a “risk” of what might occur. Or they were fattening you up for the slaughter for the grind for the abuse for the simple fact they they are so scarred/scared they could not help – and yes you the “troublemaker” the “dreamer” the boy/girl who wanted people to be happy to please others to make them comfortable who got beat on the way to school and on the way home from school and those violent extremely beautiful and brilliantly versatile had already shown you what it was going to be like for you and your children and your children’s children.
Stop. Don’t want to alarm you. Its me. Its ok. I was making a point/s. So oft in this world me dear reader points don’t make prizes. Did you let go for a moment. There are many peoples through out the world i wont mention any names or places because it will mean i will be asked is that your cause?
The human cause is my cause till everyone is free no one can be free. Till one of us is locked down in prison we are all locked down in prison. Till that child that is not yours gets every chance to reach his/her potential in a loving and caring world where we can all be one. Because we are one. we are all mixed. we are all complicit in our rise and our downfall.
My cause is the same cause you have and what you would want for your lovely beautiful children and those lovely sweets “sweets” you give them. Freedom to express to write to speak. A privilege. A hard fought one. Just writing on this platform/me spaceship that’s fuelled by love. I know you want to go back to sleep.
Its tiring this being awake.
I know.
Believe me.
Hold me hand and don’t let go….Till next time
